Courage, my friends.
“Where our words reach the sky, our heart opens. Everything expands in this subtle awareness. Voices need not be heard as they are felt without a sound.”
— Ulonda Faye, Sutras of the Heart—
‘It takes courage to make the changes, that truly will alter your life to the better,
dear reader.
And it’s not necessarily the kind of courage, that asks you to do something painful, or scary, but mainly the courage that asks you to open up to a life, you have no idea what it’s gonna look like. Once you have surrendered to the real kind of change, it will be for good and your past finally will remain were it belongs: in the past.
Comes the tipping point in every transformation, that makes you understand, that who you used to be, has nothing got to do, with who you could be; for yourself and others. It is then when you will be asked to bury the story you think you are, and vicariously make space to write a new one. Only this time, it’s not going to be written in stone, but on a level so subtle, it does not know boundaries anymore. This moment will strip you off the need to leave a mark in this world. You won’t care any longer, that others can follow and know of YOUR grand achievements, you made in THEIR name. Instead you will let go of thinking in terms of THEM and ME, and start to consciously become the ONE we initially are.
When you find the courage to trust true change, when you show up wholeheartedly, when you stop feeling separate from others, pointing out your differences, your being special, you will start to understand that your speciality and the specialty of this world is linked in being individually interconnected — we all bring something individual to the table, in our very own ways, yet fully as equals and solely for the sake of intertwining our abilities and knowledge — This is when you as an individual truly start to have an impact on the world at large. This is when you become truly successful, truly leave a mark, truly grow and RISE to abundance, excellence, effortless ease, joy, wealth, health and peace.
Sounds contradictory? I know. But imagine this: You can think of your name in big letters, written on the wall, them whispering your name, as you enter the room, bringing your magic you got to be known and acknowledged for with you. How your name has a weight, has a value, a meaning. Titles, opportunities and invitations recharge that value over and over again. And get you on the hook.
Or: You can think of the work you do, why you started it to begin with, what it is you are bringing with and how it feels, when performing this work. Solely depending on being one with who you are anyways.
The first option can easily be taken away from you. Once someone in power decides, that the influence you hold is far too big and the opinions you stand for are not in line anymore, they can easily take it all away and what you are left with is big banners you can heat your oven with, drastically speaking.
The second option is detached from what others make of you and offers you the chance to live what you love no matter what, every day, impacting the lives of those who come to learn from you and not from the titles and imagines you’ve gathered. You get to choose what makes you happy. You will be invited anyways, but you cannot be corrupted anymore. The connection we hold with ourselves, detached from what others make of us, is one strong bond and binds people in truth all over the world. This is the power of bravery, authenticity and trust. This opens the doors to subtlety. And subtle energies do not know barriers.
The biological and physical separation of ME and YOU has one meaning, and this is for the sake of us making as many different experiences as possible, in the shortest amount of time, and feed the collective (us) with it. Like that our knowledge can grow with every breath, every human being takes. Therefore we must all be different in our talents, and tasks and stories, and yet we are all the same in our bigger purpose and connection, which is a huge power.
Once this separation of you and me gets corrupted by shallow labels of physical value, we start to dissociate, to separate and reject our true nature and the nature of life. Which is a nature of symbiosis and collective learning and teaching. And that nature does not need fame, nor acceptance, it needs openness and tolerance, it needs commitment and responsibility, it needs the liberty to be most authentic and give what it has to give in truth, and not what it’s assigned to contribute.
When you understand what your talents and tasks and story is good for, you won’t care anymore to make YOU the center of the universe, because you understand we are all a fraction of it. YOU, like everybody else feeds into the great consciousness, that is US. The swarm, the oneness, the everything. And like any swarm can be used to be mislead by false idols and fake wealth, so can we, as part of it, lead from the inside out a far more lasting path, into truth, into intelligence, into understanding the power we have, when we grant everyone with the same importance, same kindness and value, we want to have to ourselves. We are wisdom. And you don’t need anyone to tell you this, you are only asked to share it with the world. So claim it.
It is nowadays known, that through our food we get not only vitamins and amino acids and metals into our bodies, but also micro RNA, containing and transporting information, transmitting learnings and teachings. For example: When an apple had to learn how to grow out of the shade and around a hindering twig, maybe even suffering from a summer drought, it carries all that information, all the how-to-do this inside its cells. That resilience, this information, once we consume the apple, gets into our cells informing and teaching our system how to deal with darkness and drought. Wales teach each other through sonar, sending their learnings into the water, so others can participate. Trees, when danger is approaching, inform one another through a network of subtle frequencies, through the ether and the ground, calling for assistance from other species like fungi or lichens, that support the trees though those rough times. There are many ways to impact one another. The fastest and most potent are those who travel light and fast. The subtle way. The way of the body (heartbeat) and mind (brain waves).
Whilst words are only describing roughly within a small framework of allocated meanings, what it is we know deep inside, frequencies bring a whole bigger picture. Frequencies are not only read by our mind and squeezed into that tiny frame of words, but are read by our body, mind and soul. I.e. The more gratitude you feel for the things you love, the more you will alter your signature frequency towards living a life in which gratitude is a daily experience. The more you feel whole, content, truthful, seen, loved, the more this will be reflected.
When I met my now husband — yes, I did get married and more on that story and how I manifested this grand love in a soon to come letter — it was literally love at first KNOWING. He walked down an isle I was sitting sideways to. I did not look at him, but my entire system was on high alert all of a sudden and the amplitude of my signature frequency was met by the same frequencies, and as we know, frequencies that are alike, when meeting double one another, and so it did. I knew it was him, and even though I barely dared to look, I felt like I was home. His message to the world equaled mine and it only happened through words much later, but we knew that moment we were meant for one another. That message mainly travelled through the thoughts and feelings we had learned to find value in, which were gratitude, kindness, inner peace, openness, detachment, purpose and so many more.
Now, I know this is a long text, but since the year is about to end, and you will receive a second newsletter of a shorter kind towards the end of 2023, it is my deep wish, to give you as much of an understanding of how to get the life you dream of really. Lastingly. Truthfully. I have stepped into the trap/experience of chasing the golden life and I have felt what happens when its being taken away from you. I have feared my own shadow, but mainly my true power, which I always knew resides within the surrendering part, within the us, within my authenticity, which I feared the most. It was only after I chose to bury my desires of acknowledgement and success, when I unleashed true acknowledgement and lasting success.
Do I doubt sometimes? Of course. Do I wish it was faster sometimes? Hell yes. But quite frankly, the speed my life is unraveling in, is hard to follow as it is, so maybe it’s a good thing, I don’t get too quickly, what I sometimes wish I had.
And here I go, wishing you to be able to consider what lies behind your desires, what can go unattached from what the media is trying to sell you as the big goals, and find your authentic service, talent, purpose. Trust your authentic self. Share it. Be courageous. Be kind. Be open. And once you have found your truth, you can start to shape, build, trust and share it. And finally harvest the fruits of your surrender: the kind of life you never knew was even possible, and yet here it comes.
My body of work, my coaching is based on that principle, for I have taken those steps, and even though I am deeply focused on supporting your journey out of any kind of fears (be it stage, speaking, camera, or fear attacks hitting you out of the blue) and feeling useless, or not enough, be it panics and daily insecurities, impostor syndrome or insecurities of a more physical and sexual nature, my end goal is, to make you understand the power you hold as an individual. Ignite the love for sharing your wisdom and talent, put yourself out there wholeheartedly, live and source from and as a fracture of the grand energy we are at large.
We will cover this this topic on all levels of the self at our RISE RETREAT in October 2024 at the beautiful Cal Reiet Eco Resort on the island of Mallorca, the place I met my husband. So it’s not only magical for me to come back, but a deep desire to invite you into a space, that is more than just another retreat, another hotel, or another summer on Mallorca island. It’s a gift you make to yourself and life will answer in more gifts.
If you have any questions concerning the retreat, the topic, or anything else, reach out to us at anytime. We are here to work for, alongside and with you, so you will truly RISE to the occasion, that is your life.
December 2023, Esther.